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"Don't expect or you will get disappointed" i do know and understand that but why it is so very hard to follow??? i wanna be at least close to your equal and ofcause although i don't have you, i will keep going on, but it hurts me the most as i know how you work; week days and weekends, you work like a robot, and that make me so concerned about you, don't you know that? but every time i called or sms you, there was no answer nor replying msg at all, what else i would feel except disappointed and cheap. i'm not trying to follow what you had said to me because i had you as my goal but i wanna speak the same language to you. i am not gonna be a looser. although i didn't do/try my best yet but i have no energy left to keep my legs going. i used to think i won't expect anything from you except being your good friend as you told me i was to you but since i can't stop worried about you, i think it's time to give up now. had been pushing myself by thinking positively for long and been fell down many times. so exhausted now. i'm so sorry i'm this weak. wishing you all the best. all i would say now is your own words "i know someone like you are tough enough to handle something like this" every time you're tensed about your work, please do not forget that. it's your own word. don't worry i won't let your time and your words wasted for nothing. i am still keep on going on my way, following by your words and visions. i'm gonna get higher as much as i could so. thanks for everything you had done for me. i still have only positive attitude toward you, nothing is gonna change that.
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